A Hard Day that Ends Unexpectedly!
Hey guys, so Today’s a therapy day Not for Lincoln, but for me And Steven, and I have been both going To see a therapist from the past five months Today, I just did a single session and my therapist likes to kind of break it up And so she’ll see me individually see Stephen individually We do some marriage counseling as well But today was a session just for me and I wanted to talk a little bit about That I want to be real with you guys And obviously you can’t share everything on YouTube There’s like an appropriate time in place to share things that you’re going through and so some of that you know is just for People that you’re really close to that can be trusted safe people to walk with you through really challenging things but at the same time we never want to Portray that our life is perfect or that we have everything together And I I know that we’ve talked about that several times if you have watched any of our other vlogs We’ve talked about it being a difficult season Going to therapy that kind of thing but I just wanted to be real with you guys for a minute because Sometimes life is really really difficult. And I know that a lot of you guys have reached out to us Over the past year and a half that we’ve been on YouTube and have shared your own challenges and struggles that you guys are going through and so I don’t want you to feel like you are alone or that Everyone else isn’t also going through difficult things at different times in their life. And so if you had asked me three years ago how things are going I would have said Life is as good as it gets Couldn’t ask for anything more and I would have 100% meant that If you asked me right now How are things going? I would tell you that we have so much to be grateful for and So much that is good Love our children so much even I love each other so much There’s a lot of good but there’s a lot of heart too and So while I can’t necessarily share all of the details of that I just Want you guys to know that everyone goes through really hard seasons and it’s important that you Take care of yourself in those seasons. That’s something that I am really focusing on lately is Seeking out ways to take care of myself I Have gone through a lot of trauma in the past few months. My therapist is actually treating me for PTSD and things like that It’s been really really really hard and so I know we share a lot of moments with you guys playing with the kids and laughing and smiling and those are genuine moments we Adore our children and we love making memories and we love doing special things and sharing they’ll follow you guys but what you don’t see sometimes is the anxiety attacks Behind closed doors With artists moments of just intense grief You’d have to go and close the door and just Privately weep and process through a lot of pain and so I Want to be real with you guys that this has been a really really tough season for us But one of the ways that I Try to deal with pain and grief I think it’s really important to stay hopeful and Positive you’ll hear me say a lot of times I’m grateful for this. I’m thankful for that I love this. I love that person and I say those things to remind myself like there’s so much to be thankful for there’s always so much to be thankful for and I Never want to forget that even in the hardest moments even in the most painful moments never want to forget how good at God is and Leo my faith to Get us through really challenging times. And so I’m probably freaking a lot of you guys out about this, but I just want to show some vulnerability and Show that we’re just a regular family that goes through our own share of struggles and God is still good and There’s still so much that we can be thankful for and so that is really That’s really where we are. I just want you guys to know like it’s not all like rainbows and sunshine and all of that but Can we choose gratitude? You choose to stay positive Choose to walk in hope and not fear and Choose forgiveness when that’s needed. I think it’s really important to make sure that you are Looking for resources in people that can be a support to you when you are struggling And it’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay to get help when you need it Whether you’re struggling with depression or anxiety or a traumatic event, you’ve gone through or relational Issues or health issues or financial issues, whatever it might be it’s it’s okay and it’s important to get help and to know that you’re not alone and so To find people that you can trust that you can walk with through difficult times that can Support you and be loyal and honest and gracious with you Look for you know programs or counselors or therapists and doctors that can help there are so many resources out there and Steven and I have actually just found a few new resources and a few new friends actually that are going to be able to walk with us and just be a support and be an encouragement because we all need that so much and So I know there’s a lot of rambling guys, but I just want you guys to know that whatever you’re going through no matter what You’re gonna be okay In God is good. And God is with you in the most painful moments of your life God has not abandoned you he is with you and It’s gonna be okay Yeah, we’re gonna be okay. I know I know I’m just a crying mess, but we’re gonna be okay, too But I wanted to share that with you guys and just Show some of the behind the scenes stuff you don’t normally see And just be real with you guys for a little bit So yeah, I just finished a therapy session and it went really well I really liked my therapist and so I’m gonna head home now the kids are finished with school and Steven just picked up Ethan from kindergarten and so I’m gonna go home and we’re going to Spend some time as a family and that’s something we’ve been trying to do a lot lately. It’s just really really slow down spend a lot of time as a family just connecting and Just focusing on those positive moments. And so Hey guys, how’s it going? To the kitchen, what are you guys making here? We’re making one Philippe’s dishes that her foster mom made whenever she was little Oh, this is the one thing all guys found online the that you said you used to eat growing up a lot of those You found it. Oh My gosh That’s awesome. I’m excited to try it Penelope is a really good cook and so is Kira you guys are really excellent cooks so I bet she’s gonna turn out delicious help She’s a nice helper. Yeah What are you boys watching? Oh Let’s have been boyish Sounds good For Christmas, maybe so maybe so oh my gosh, that’s it. Let me plan to me Good good Good. Everybody’s therapy sometimes. Yeah. I just on them. We’re very pro counselling therapy all that stuff. They’ve all got struggles. Yeah They’re coming from school, so we’re gonna go get Lincoln up and the kids are gonna go to You mix it. I’m not sure who all has Reese isn’t feeling so well Hopefully not No, like it’s like a stomach stop Reminds me of your Okay. So yeah, I’m gonna go check on her and get Lincoln up from a nap and then we’re just gonna hang out tonight It’s like all rainy and gross I was wanting this you’re like a family walk or something But I think we will be indoors. Are you am I cutting your head? It was like this is like seven inches shorter than you Oh my god, she’s so excited Let’s go downstairs Your brother’s what are you guys making Upgrade oh my gosh. Look at this guys. There are a lot of people on that rocket. That’s cool Cool upgrade you guys are always making upgrades, huh? It had so fun It’s so funny being a boy mom because I grew up with all sisters where we did Barbies and dress up and that kind of stuff And so I always laugh when they say all these funny little boy things like look at my upgrade Like a diaper blowout there’s a disaster so we gave him a little bath and changed his clothes. Thank you Guys Rhys is not feeling well. She’s having a lot of stomach pain. We’re not really sure what’s going on Yeah, but it is getting worse. And so I think we’re gonna actually take The urgent and clinic down the road and see if we can figure out what is going on because school I was not feeling well I’m not gonna put a camera in her face or anything like that but we’re gonna head down there and just hopefully see if we can figure out what is going on with So turns out these has appendicitis So, that’s exactly and so the EMS is headed here right now and They’re gonna take over two different hospitals or tomorrow morning They can remove her appendix Beautiful especially given the circumstances so it’s just been sort of a rough day all around and Kind of just a rough season, you know It’s sort of fitting. I guess that the video started out with Amanda talking about that and then this is how our day ends but We love you guys and that will keep you guys posted. We’re actually gonna you know try to somehow capture some of tomorrow obviously respect trees and Respect the doctors in the whole process and their me like that. I’m not sure how much we’ll be able to video but I Will totally watch They said it’s a pretty you know Non-invasive surgery. I mean, I guess, you know, they’re gonna balloon up her belly and go in and take it out. So But that usually it’ll I take like a day to recover. So who knows how that’s gonna go but How do you get out you’re so brave Yeah Hopefully we can have you better in time to go see call. Anyhow on Friday. Yeah, it’ll be good. It’s The nurses are like but I’ve used the worst part. You’re good to go But even the IV you were like pretty worried about that, you killed it. Yeah, that’s in me Now Reese is getting an angiogram So anyway, we’re gonna go ahead and sign out here guys and just let her kind of you know Rest up, and then the EMS should be here in just a minute to take us to the other hospital So we’ll see you guys next time. I would love you guys A what? I’m gonna pin decided you won’t have it appendicitis this I Can fool your name’s sake you will lead me back. Hope to you